Give me peace, please?

i have been bothered by so many issues recently.
gonna suffocate very soon ):
happy times doesnt stays,
& bad times/memories/situation just keep haunting me.
i dont wanna end 2009 this way.
upset but true, i am gonna start 2010 in an unhappy manner too ):

what's next year gonna be like when so many things have to be pushed back?
hate it when things strucks me and i lose all the drive to continue striving.
i have to be strong, its time i get on my feet.
no more getting back to square one,
i repeat, no more!
but like what many says, as long as you stay bonded as one,
plenty of things can be solved rationally.
i really hope so.

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this picture post came late, pardon me.
meetup with emily&co was awesome.
reuben's bdae celebration was awesome as well, w66p hurray!
bff's bdae celebration was mad love too, xoxoxo ftw!
bonding with cousins & relatives, spells l-o-v-e!

xmas was great, very well balanced (:
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thankful for all this,
at least those upsetting stuffs didnt surface when im with them (:

sem 1 classmates! :]
& yes, we still meet up & have endless topics.
much loves too, meet up soon!

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w66p united as one! (:

so many months had passed after we've graduated,

and we're still this close.

i must say, you guys are really the best!
meet up soon!

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'kope' pics from jas :]

my xoxoxo clique, i cant live without.

loveloves much.

cant wait to see you girlies later (:


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i love them, because we go through thick&thin tgt
what's most impt is, the love we shared (:
they're the ones who nvr fails to make me feel better

& they certainly seen my craziest side.

i love you all!

maternal side relatives ftw! :]

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splendid views on xmas (:

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lastly,

i wanna thank my cousins, bff, vivi, lqh, ks.

for being there for me during this tough period (:

Its a heartbreaking situation.

i dont voice out doesnt mean i am not affected.
i dont like seeing everything thumbling down just like that.
i cannot imagine how's life gonna be.
where so many things have to be pushed back.
everything cant go according to plan.
i am tired, tired of things happening around me.
even more tired of life right at this point.
i need peace,
i just feel like being alone for a lil while.

2009 is quite a bad year.
i hope 2010 will be a better year.
i am not looking forward to xmas seriously.

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i am finally home for dinner after so many days.

i am going broke, very very broke.

this is a bad sign, because i need to prepare so many ppl's xmas gift ):

life is full of ups & downs.

ive been experiencing plenty of happy stuffs.

but happy moments doesnt last.

so i am very much stucked in between of no where.

i just wanna be happy seriously.

will update about my weekends when i feel better.

lastly,

ADVANCE HAPPY BIRTHDAY BFF!

LOVE YOU LONG TIME.

I dont need you to know,

but you still did.
dont know why/how,
being me, i will still return a word of thanks.

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certainly, nightmare.

all of you wouldnt want to know how bad/horrifying it is to go through this.

i am thankful ive my family members around.

whenever there's time like this, they're the one who suffers with me too.

they're the ones who understand me the most (:

i wanted to just laugh this off by telling myself,

its quite cool aint it, so many first experiences.

putting on drips, etc etc.

yes i know it sounds silly, but i dont know what other ways should i use to chuck this incident aside.

gotta stop all my late nights and have a balance diet and lead a healthy lifestyle!!

MUST MUST MUST!!!

lastly, i wanna thanks all who showed concern,

esp my relatives, carrie, xoxoxo, vivi, emily, seow, aa and all those on fb (:

missed the party on thurs, and today had to miss my 'newmoon' date!

upset but i guess, i really need this amount of rest afterall (:

will update with pictures the next post when i feel better (:

dayout with emily& co on 28thnov.

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P.S; thank you for the vitamin c & card, appreciated!!

P.P.S; i do get mentally drained when ive to keep explaining myself, please do try to understand.