My heart smiles,

"Waking up to something sweet, trying to lengthen the companion of each other by snoozing the alarm, leaving with a kiss on the forehead. This is what i call, perfect morning."

i am elated!
today's a blissful day,
thanks to my lovely family & kscz,
or prolly i should say, daddy :)

chinese new year was awesome!!
it was well-balanced!! :)
met xoxoxo, w66p, most imptly all my awesome relatives & cousins!

pics spam! ;p

♥

they'll never be replaced, incl grandma (:

my angels :*)

cousins ftw!! much loves!!

♥

my xoxoxox loves! :D:D

♥

lover girlssssss :D

♥

my valentine :)

P.S: i love surprises! thank you, chusss*

more meetup & activities to come!
cant wait! but first i needa prioritise my stuffs & get them done first before i let the fun set in!! wheeee whooooo.
1 week without kscz, hmmpfs outfield!! :@

hope that everything goes well on monday!!
& please please let me pass TP on first attempt!!

thats all folks.
ciaos.
xoxo.

The pain will go, the scar will heal.

"Before, my fear was being vulnerable. The ability of another human being to possibly tear apart your insides at any moment was enough to keep me running. He, however, made my insides come alive, my smile become permanent, laughter more frequent - he took away my fear and gave me hope. But more importantly, for the first time in my life, instead of wanting to run, he gave me every reason to stay."

/via (Runawaytrain.tumblr)

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point-form fun.

- so many things to do, so lil time
- so many things to buy, so lil cash
- so many things to prepare for my 21st, busy busy! who's willing to help? awww.
- yet to pack my room
- not really excited about cny
- that big pimple needs to heal in 3days. arghhh freaking big lol.
- rmit or unisim?
- totally cant wait for TP, must pass!!
- still worried about the OP.
- needa get over the fact that mr bf might not be studying with me, will be busier after cny, leaving for thai soon, ):
- am glad he'd still be there during my recovery period.

off to eat my brunch,
hopefully there's time to craft my invitation cards.
& paint my nails.
needa reach at 7pm!!
okay i reckon that i wont be able to make it. hah!

ciaos.

Life; ups & downs.

"If everything was always smooth and perfect, you’d get too used to that, you know? You have to have a little bit of disorganization now and then, otherwise you’ll never really enjoy it when things go right."

/via (Eletheowl.tumblr)

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i really shouldnt have always look at things so negatively & end up making myself feel so miserable. its time to see things in a positive way and not expecting the worst.
must not have the feel that 'i'm admitting defeat even without a fighting a war'.

htht is always awesome although tears always play a part in it.
but sometimes you really need someone to share your thoughts & give you some opinions.

i might have nod my head or said that i've understand.
but deep down, i know my thoughts are still in a whirlwind mess.
however, im gonna tell myself that it will get better as time goes by.
slowly one by one, im gonna get my check-list all checked.

although i really hate starting and adapting a new phase of life,
but still, i have to face it.
stop avoiding & face up to reality.
be independent, & keeping in mind that 'change is the only thing constant in life'

although things might be different,
but still, ive to learn from it & enjoy it in a different aspect.

i will be fine :)
life will be better,
the rainbow will appear.

just remember, i'll be there for you as well.
thank you mr bf.
& i hope things gonna get better.

& lastly, eils babe,
you've to be strong!
i love you long time ♥

Do we?

I think we spend too much time wondering why we’re not good enough. We spend too much time overanalyzing, over-thinking, and overreacting. We waste too much time putting ourselves down, so much that we don’t ever stop to see that well, we are good enough. You are good enough. Always remember that.

/via (runaway.tumblr)

This is ME.

expectations;
you've yours,
i've mine.

passive & active,
you taught me this.
i kept that in mine.
i hope you do so too.

Hidden.

linger?
haunting?
over?

You're my light in the darkness, breathing hope of a new life

give all your hope to me.

i'm trying to look strong,
but deep down, i need more than this
dont make me seem insignificant to you.
am i not on the priority list as compared to the many things u have to deal with?
sometimes i avoid, i never wanna try creating a topic to talk to you with fear to know how small a part i play in your life.
or do you not show?
if thats the case, i'd like to be freed.
freed from all this doubts and assumptions i made.

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yes this is how horrifying it looks now.
& so, im only left with 1 choice.

i tried to brush it off,
to think positive.

maybe ive reached the point of my life that requires me to really be strong, be independent.
maybe its time i think deep enough about what i really want in life.
maybe it has made clearer now that my life is getting more challenging.
maybe god planned it this way, he wants me to learn.

i wanted to give up everything around me when i heard of this.
i forced a smile, i joked, telling you everything is fine.
but deep down, my heart is weeping.
i really wonder why do i have so much health issues.

gonna make good use of this 2months before this crucial thing.
now that this is finally decided,
i ought to prioritise my stuffs properly.

1. TP
2. Advance 21st Birthday Celebration
3. OP
4. PT SIM Business Mngt
5. Work when everything's stable.

i so wanna go Genting & Sentosa, play all the rides again before i cant do so.
& curb all my cravings before the crucial thing.
most imptly, i really pin high hopes on no. 1 - 3!!

i am praying hard,
that everything goes fine.

P.S: be my perfect lullaby.